SteevAK

Why does Valentine’s Day, of all days, be the day where I feel the least loved? Or the least cared for? I’ve lost both of my best friends within three days of each other. The first one because of various reasons that didn’t have to be so. The second I have no idea why. Now, I feel like something is very wrong with my life. How could I mess things up so badly? Today I skipped two classes and the last one I went to, but I was so distracted and apathetic to really learn anything. I might as well have stayed in bed all morning. I’m playing more computer games than I have in a very very long time. It’s sad. But I just don’t care right now. I have no motivation to do something else. My life seems mostly a shallow experience, and the few deeper experience I have are either too painful or too confusing for me to enjoy or benefit from them.

In short, I feel like a human wasteland right now.